Thursday, November 30, 2006

Downswings kill my soul


This is a graph of my winnings (or lack thereof) since Oct 1. The huge drop in the beginning was 200NL 6max on PartyPoker, which i am still beating over a huge sample size of i think 140k hands. The gradual upswing is when I moved to PokerStars and started grinding my way back up. The recent downswing is playing the same game at PokerStars...except getting repeatedly ass-raped.

I dont know what is causing it. I go over every major hand after every session I play to see if I could improve anything. I am a damn good player, and have been doing this professionally for almost 3 years. I'm in a pretty bad spot financially right now, and this is just a serious kick in the teeth for me.

If things dont improve drastically by the end of December, this may be the end of poker for me... Unfortunately, I've got a monthly nut that cant be filled by any other job I'm qualified for at the moment...hopefully I can break into Internet Marketing and make some decent money before my well runs dry.

French Lick Casino Trip

Monday evening, my Dad and I went to the SBIR seminar at the French Lick Casino and Resort. It was only a 1 and 1/2 hour drive from my house...but half of the trip was through 2-lane streets and crappy towns. Surprisingly enough, there were very VERY few billboards and advertisements for the casino on the way there. Probably a big indicator of the lack of traffic in their casino.

We got in, dropped our bags in our room, and headed straight to the casino. My dad had found a handful of quarters that he planned on giving to some slot machines. Walking through the casino, we couldn't find a single machine that would accept quarters! For the first time in history, we were upset that we were unable to give up our money. Oh well - to the poker room.The poker room looked nice, there were about 12 tables set up in the room, and everything was pretty clean and new. Of the 12 tables that were set up, only 1 was playing a game, and only 8 players were seated. Lucky for us - they were playing 1-2NL holdem, which was what we were looking for. And we were able to occupy the 2 empty seats to fill the table. I cashed in 200$, my dad cashed in 100$, and we went to work.

My dad busted out early with an 88 v KQ hand on a JT7J9 board. He could have played the turn better, but once he got to the river there was no way he could have laid it down. Ah well :(.

I had worked up a ~550$ stack by 11pm. I doubled up off of some old guy when my 77 hit a 784 flop. 8 on the turn. 5 on the river. He paid me off big with his 66, and promptly left the table in anger.

So it's about midnight, and I limp in with 44. Everybody else at the table limps in (as was extremely usual for this game - these players were horrible) and we see a 664 flop. Bingo! I lead out 10$ into a 10$ pot - I had been aggressive the entire game, and was probably making 80% of the preflop raises at the table, so I was expecting plenty of action. The god-awful player to my left (who always had a pissed off look on his face) min-raised me to 20$. I was 100% sure he had a 6. And i was about 90% sure he'd call my all in, since he's the type to always think the other guy is bluffing. I push all in, which puts him all in for his remaining ~250$. He calls and shows A6, I flip my 44, his angry face gets even angrier. The turn is a 5. The river is a damn 600$ A. I die a little inside.

Despite the awful loss, I was still up about 60$, and continued to play for another 2-3 hours. By the end of the night, I had 140$ profit, 4 coronas (which cost me 5$ a piece...no free drinks here), and a 7$ meal comp for the deli. Not a bad night at all. The poker room in that casino really really needed some improvement though.

1) The dealers were slow, and they switched dealers every 30 minutes. We were maybe getting 20 hands an hour.
2) 6$ table rake every 30 minutes instead of raking x% from each pot. This is absolutely ridiculous. We are paying between 25c and 50c PER HAND with this rake structure. Fuck that.
3) Nobody is even there. Put up some billboards so people can find this place. Driving through 10 hick-ass towns to find a casino isn't exactly easy access.
4) Poker is huge. Absolutely huge. Highlight it, bring people in there, and they will lose their money there and elsewhere in your casino. The way it was run, they obviously didnt really give a shit. The dealers were amateurs, and rules were broken frequently.

In the end, at about 2am, there were 5 players left, and we requested that the rake be lowered to 3$ instead of 6$. The poker room manager decided that this was ok, but would have to check with the other manager when she got back. We paid our 3$ and continued playing. About 20min later, the other manager came to the table and told us that they were not authorized to blah blah blah and we would have to pay 6$ from now on.

The response of the table was pretty much "fuck it, that's too much, we're leaving". Good job, bitch. You got greedy and wanted 30$, and in demanding it, you lost the 15$ you could have collected. Now your poker room is empty and you have nothing to do for the rest of the night.

I cashed out my 340$, and returned to my room where I'd get about 3 hours sleep before going to the SBIR conference (which applies so little to me, and really isnt even worth note). It was a pretty good time, and even with the horrendous table rake, the game is beatable. But those folks at French Lick really need to change some things for that casino to be successful.

The trip did inspire me to visit my local casino - Casino Aztar, and see how I fare there. I'll come back and write a trip report once I've given it a shot.

Until next time...

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

God damnit

http://www.pokerhand.org/?639828
http://www.pokerhand.org/?639831
http://www.pokerhand.org/?639835

From +350 to +50 in about a minute.

I'll post about the casino trip tomorrow.

fucking hell

Updates

Well it has been a while since i've blogged...i've just been busy as hell, and have not had time.

Over the past week or so i've still been experiencing a pretty annoying downswing. Nothing very intense, just a small loss every day. As minor as the losses may have been, it still is frustrating to lose over and over again.

One day, which I thought was going to be my first winning day in a while, I was up ~400-500$ after my first 3 hours. By my 6th (and last) hour, I was down 30 cents. 30 damn cents. Thanks alot, God.

I've been thinking about getting into new business ventures...as if i had enough time...

My dad and I went to French Lick Casino for a SBIR convention on Monday and Tuesday, and it was pretty interesting. I will come back to make a post about that trip, as it deserves its own blog.

I also think I'll start selling some things on ebay. Crap around the house, EBooks, etc. My dad also wrote a handyman business manual which I should be able to sell pretty well. It is definitely an option, and I'm confident it will bring in at least a little money.

I decided to put my PS3s in the local paper instead of on eBay. Ebay is a giant pain in the ass, they screw you with fees, and the price of PS3s has bottomed out. I should be able to get ~1k each locally, and not have to worry about shipping or fees.

Having an okay day of poker so far today - hope it continues.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

The Campout - A little disappointing

Most of Wednesday, I was planning to go to the Walmart in Boonville, since there would be far less people there, and therefore a higher chance of getting some systems. Then after calling Boonville up a few times, I learned that they wouldnt even let people START to stand in line until 7am the following morning...so people were just wandering around the store waiting until 7am. No thanks to that.

After dinner, about 6:30pm we drove out to the Evansville Walmart, which was right next to Best Buy. We only saw about 5 or 6 tents set up, so we decided that if the Evansville Walmart wasnt a better option, we'd buy a tent and set ourselves up in front of Best Buy.

We picked up a cheapo 25$ tent (which was pretty impressive for its' cost), some batteries, a couple lanterns, and a copy of "Blow" on DVD.

Upon arrival at Best Buy, we learned that we'd be about 25th-26th in line, which was ironic, since all of the buzz on the internet said that Best Buys will be getting 26 systems max. The first night was cold and rainy and pretty miserable. Our tent was leaking (as was everyone else in line), it was easily below 40 degrees, and we were drinking beer, so we'd have to run to the bathroom every hour or so.

After the first night, things improved. It was still pretty damn cold, but the rain never got worse than a drizzle, and the rules of the line were pretty relaxed. We were able to go to neighboring resteraunts and stores to keep warm and occupy ourselves. Around 5pm Thursday we even got the "ok" to go home and clean up, since we had started to smell pretty nasty. The relaxed line rules also worked a little against us, since there was a tent full of high-schoolers near the front of the line. 3 of the kids actually went to high school and came back and still kept their space in line. I called BS on that, but everybody else seemed to have a bit more sympathy.

Wednesday night, the store manager came out and informed us that they will have 20 60gb systems and 10 20gb systems, and anybody beyond #30 in line is unlikely to receive one. This was good news, because we were pretty much guaranteed 2 systems, but I had my eye on the 60gb ones, and wasnt sure if we were close enough to the front to get one.

The next morning when they were passing out the purchasing tickets, Mary and I were #21 and 22 in line. The person in front of me got the very last 60gb system, and I got the first 20gb. Weak. Ah well, they'll still make us a pretty good profit, right? Well...I hope so. Starting Saturday, more than 30k Playstation 3s were listed on ebay, and about 10 of the auctions are ending EVERY MINUTE. By the time thanksgiving rolls around, more than half of the systems that were put on the market will have been resold! I really hope I'll be able to pick up a decent price for them after this initial flood of systems goes away. I think the day after thanksgiving will be the best bet. Still, I dont expect to make more than 1k per system.

Back to the poker grind for me. I've decided that 200NL full ring on PokerStars is just too damn flooded with pros to be worth the time. I am probably going to return to my 6max game, starting at the 100$ level, and moving up accordingly. I'm still in an extended downstreak right now, and my spirits arent very high.

That's about it for me.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Waiting in line for the PS3!


In about 2 hours, I'll be heading out to sit in line for another 32 hours. The playstation 3 will be released at Walmart at 12:01 Friday morning, and I want to get my hands on a couple. Of course I wont be playing any games on them...I'll be turning them right over to ebay and hopefully profiting about 1k+ each. Giving me a PS3 that I plan to play would be like giving a big fat bag of crack to a recovering crackhead. My life is better without videogames ;)

So for the next day and a half, i'll be breathing Walmart air, eating Walmart food, surounded by Walmartians, and not playing any poker or having too much fun. We'll be bringing plenty of supplies to camp out and pass the time. Hopefully we'll be first in line, since we'll be going to the Walmart in Boonville (yes, the town is actually named BOONVILLE). The people there are lazy, stuck 30 years in the past, and probably wont have the initiative to get in line as early as we are.

Updates to follow!

Holy crap!

I was bored this morning and browsing around YouTube - and came across this video.

I wasnt looking for anything in particular, just clicking things that could be funny.

That guys name is Adam. I visited him with my friends from Purdue last December. He lives in South Bend. He's a mormon. Apparently he enjoys dressing up as a woman and dancing to the Ghostbusters song.

Thought it was definitely blogworthy.

Oh, and if you're looking for another laugh - This is the worst, but funniest, burglar in history.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

More downswings, Hefeweizen, Brown Ale, and Black Lager

Another narsty day of poker for me.... I think 3 bad days in a row will automatically put me in a bad mood. Seeing as I play a very low-variance style, in a very low-variance game (full ring NL), I get pretty cranky when i have more than 3 losing days in a row. Especially when I endure the beats I did today. See my earlier post for a nice example :P


Tonight, Mary and I returned Capote to the video store, and started watching "Derailed" with Clive Owen and that chick from Friends. This movie really was not the thing I needed for the crappy mood I was already in. Charlie (Clive Owen) played a pretty decent guy who was just being beaten down by an awful series of events. I did not even finish the movie. Charlie was about to have an affair with what'sername. Then they get robbed. She gets raped. All sorts of rape, murder, and awful bullshit happens to Charlie. I get fed up with this depressing movie and turn it off.


On our way home from the video store, I picked up a Samuel Adams Mix Pack, containing 2 of each - Hefeweizen, Brown Ale, and Black Lager. I've had one of each now, and must say that I am very impressed with Sam Adams. These guys make some high-quality beer. Before these 3, I've tried their Lite beer and Summer Ale. The Summer Ale was amazing. Very smooth with a light citrus flavor to it. My favorite of these new 3 is the Hefeweizen. It is a cloudy gold color, a little bit sweet, and very enjoyable. The Brown Ale and Black Lager are also great, but I haven't developed as much of a taste for darker beers as I have for the lighter ones.


I decided to continue the Star Wars Trilogy and watch "The Empire Strikes Back" tonight. I think I can say that this is the best of the 6 films released. Though, from what I've heard - episodes 7 through 9 are in development. Having played the videogame versions of episode 7 and 8, I am looking forward to these future episodes. The stories, though cheesy and simple, should offer plenty of Jedi v Jedi fights and entertaining scenes. I was enthusiastic about Episode I as well....so lets hope Lucas does a better job with these.

Poker, Star Wars, Beer, and Eggs... I sure do blog about nerdy mundane subjects...

Until the next nerdacious topic sparks my fancy... later all.

Hey God - Bite me

http://www.pokerhand.org/?612397
http://www.pokerhand.org/?612383
http://www.pokerhand.org/?612430

I don't think I was destined to play tournaments.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Capote, Omega IIIs, Downswings, and Episode IV

It has been a few days since I've blogged, and now that I've come back, I've got way too much to write about! Perhaps I should make myself visit more regularly...



Mary and I rented and watched "Capote" tonight, and I've got to say it is one of my favorite movies. Characters like Truman Capoten - brilliantly portrayed by Phillip Seymour Hoffman - are inspiring and motivating to me. I don't think "moved" was the right word, but I was definitely impressed and influenced by this film. I won't go into the details, or repeat the plot of the movie, but I will definitely be reading "In Cold Blood" and "To Kill a Mockingbird" when I have some free time this month. For those of you who have not seen the movie, I would definitely suggest it.

Over the last couple months, I've been doing a pretty good job of cooking for myself - and I've grown a new found respect for eggs. Yes, that's right - eggs. At your local grocery store, you can buy 24 of these bad boys for less than 2$. That's less than 10 cents per egg! These things are packed with protien, Omega IIIs (whatever the hell those are), and all sorts of other stuff that's good for your body. It takes less than 5min to prepare them in whatever way you prefer. You can easily incorporate cheese, salt + pepper, etc. to make them more exciting. Eggs are great. Eat them.



Earlier today, I was playing 9 tables of 200NL full-ring and one 20$ 180man tournament on stars. 9 tables on the left, 1 tourney on the right. I proceded to experience smooth-sailings on the right, and get my ass handed to me on the left. After about 3 hours, I was down a good 900$ on my 200NL tables, and reached the final 4 of the tournament on the right. Unfortunately, my tournament-newbiness lost me the tournament in a KJ v AA hand on a KQxddd board. In my defense, the final table really did not go my way. I ran KK into AA and doubled up one of the players who would eventually reach 3rd place. And I was definitely not receiving my fair share of decent hands to play. Regardless, the hand I busted on could have easily been avoided, and I'll take this lesson to all of the future tournaments I play. I ended up in 4th place for 288$, which is not too damn bad for a 20$ buyin. When balanced against my 900$ downswing at 200NL, it looked much less impressive. I did manage to put in another 2 hours (1.3k hands) at 200NL later tonight, and worked my way back up another 600$. Tonight is just proof that if I stick it out and keep playing my A-game, I can always bring myself back from these ugly downswings.

As I type this blog, I am watching Star Wars: A New Hope. I wish I could have been around when this movie was first released to theaters, and was as revolutionary as it was to its' time. I'd also like to watch the movie before George Lucas decided to fuck with it and add more CG. That crap really wasn't necessary, and hurt the movie more than it helped. Has anybody seen the revised "Star Wars: Return of the Jedi"? They changed the entire ending of the movie! Fuck that. I'd rather watch Episode I (Star Wars: The massive failure) than watch this butchered finale' to Episode VI. Leave your movies in their historic glory, George. Quit fucking with them.


That's it!

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Sixth Sense Scanner Progress

With as many things as I have on my plate lately, I even feel guilty starting a blog - as it is just one more thing to suck up my time. Sixth Sense is definitely up there on the list of things that need my attention and I haven't had enough time for. I am about 90% done with the TAIN scanner on Eurolinx poker, and just today have gotten the Bodog scanner to about the 90% mark.

(I consider it 90% when the scanner works, but it doesn't work forever without my supervision... the scanners need to be close to 100% maintenance free to be complete and working.)

After getting Party, FTP, and Absolute to work, we hit a bit of a glass ceiling because of how difficult other poker lobbies are to work with. Well now that Ben has developed the Sixth Sense OCR program (which allows me to interact with the more problematic lobbies) we can keep moving forward.

Over the next few days, hopefully Ben will have the time to get his end of these scanners working, and we'll finally be able to add TAIN and Bodog to the list of supported sites. A list of 5 sites will really improve Sixth Sense into a more impressive program.

More updates on Sixth Sense to come! 2+2ers rejoice!

Nullsoft Shoutcast






I only played about 30 minutes of poker yesterday, and didn't have a single relevant hand, so not much news to report on that front.

I have started listening to internet-radio stations on Shoutcast, and am very pleased with the quality of the music and the surprising complete lack of advertisements. "Groove Salad" is the station i've been listening to...seems like pretty damn good ambient poker music. So if you're as sick of your music as I am of mine, give it a shot.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Pot-Limit Omaha - Beginnings

I've given PLO quite a few shots in the past. I never really was too serious about it. I'd just play it when I was sick of Hold'em and wanted to liven things up a bit. And let me tell you, it is quite an experience compared to hold'em. Yesterday and today, I have played about 2.5k hands of 100$ buyin PLO on PokerStars. Either I am incredibly terrible at PLO, or someone must have flipped my doomswitch, because I was greeted with a nice 800$ downswing. I think it was a little bit of both, honestly.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?599292 Nut flush vs. Straight flush... Being a NLHE player, of course my jaw dropped.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?601159 This is one hand that I DEFINITELY should have laid down on the flop. These kids dont reraise much other than AAxx, but my NLHE instincts took over and lost me another 80$.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?601165 I played this one like a big dumb donkey...

http://www.pokerhand.org/?601173 I was looking for hands that I played well, and this really is the best I could come up with, and it is pretty good evidence that I'm starting to be able to transition from NLHE to PLO. Opponents stats showed that he raised less than 2% of his holdings, which at this level almost always means he has AAxx or a strong wrap hand. So if he has AAxx, I win with a 9, J, 7, or any heart - giving me 16 outs, and making me a favorite against AAxx. If he has a hand like TJQK, 9TJQ, or if his AAxx contains 2 hearts, I am in big trouble. But I think I am ahead enough of the time to raise him here and push him out of the hand.

In general, I did overestimate the value of some of my low wrap hands. I also played my KKxx and QQxx hands a bit too frequently out of position, this was improved very much after a few hours of play.

What I've learned so far -
Position is HUGELY important in PLO - much moreso than hold'em.
Very few low level PLO players really know what they're doing.
AAxx is overrated and should not be open-raised in early position.

I've got the odds of the game down. I've been counting outs and reading hands for years, and this part has become second nature to me. Now I need to start to develop a style for myself, and build some confidence in this game like I have in NLHE.

In time I expect to tear Stars PLO apart, simply because it is an untapped resource... While NLHE has been supersaturated with 2+2ers and set-mining grinders.

I plan to practice my PLO game early in the day when the hold'em tables are loaded with rocks and pros. I'll continue my NLHE rampage at night when the fish are swimming. Mixing up games is always good, and keeps my mind fresh.

'Til next time...

What is Belok?

This is a question I've been asked many times, and the answer is never as exciting or creative as you would think.

No, it is not "B-Lock".

And no, it isn't Baelog from World of Warcraft. (though embarassingly enough, I wasted 2 months of my life on that game)

It is pronounced "Beh - Lock".

Translated from Russian, it means "egg white". Of course you're wondering why in the hell I would name myself something so trivial and un-meaningful. Well, the whole "egg white" thing was a surprise to me as well, and turns out to just be a random coincidence.

Belok is a name I randomly made up back when I was a 12-year old computer nerd who was obsessed with magic, dragons, and videogames. It was the name of my character in nearly every game I played, ranging from Terris, Baldur's Gate, Asheron's Call, and World of Warcraft. A little disappointing of a backstory, eh? But it does get deeper than that.

As a kid, whether or not I knew it, I was obsessed with "the grind". Poker players are most aware of the grind, and it applies to videogames just as much as it does poker.

"The Grind" is a term used to describe boring, repetitive work that is necessary to move forward in whatever field you happen to be working. Work is a grind, Poker is a grind, and in many RPG video games, leveling up and gaining gold/experience are also a big fat grind. For most of my adolescent years I was living the grind. Killing thousands of monsters so I could get to the next level, and then kill some bigger monsters...to get to the next level...to kill some even bigger monsters.

Now that I've grown up a bit, videogame gold and experience are much less appealing to me, and money is what moves me to excel.

As much of a massive waste of time as those games seem, my strong math background and undescribable life-long addiction to "The Grind" are what molded me into a pretty damn good poker player. It requires unbelievable patience, discipline, and the will to sit and play for hours and hours on end to achieve a goal that can seem to only move farther away.

Belok is the character that fights through the grind. Even after the 20-buyin downstreaks over weeks of hard work, Belok fights on and keeps moving forward. Sure, it's cheesy. But over the years, I've put in thousands and thousands of hours as Belok and the fight still continues. Whether it be points, credits, experience, gold, or a good ol' American dollar - Belok is going to do what he needs to get his share. And that's why I still use the name I randomly pulled out of my ass as a prepubescent computer geek.

This is a blog about myself and my grind in this world. Belok is the hero of this story, and in the end, the hero needs to win.